If you fail the first time...

try, try, again. Today started out to be really good. I woke up to hearing thunder but by noon the sun was out and it was perfect weather. About 12:15 I met up with some guys from my anatomy class to study for our lecture test. We studied from 12:45 to 6:00 and then I went to take my test then. Since my tests are taken in a testing center, I am able to see what score I got right when I leave the testing room. As I searched for my I-number I saw a failing score and pretty much broke down. I walked back home feeling completely defeated and tried holding back the tears as long as possible. I then broke down and just cried. I called my dad to let him know what had happened. He was very sympathetic to me but said how proud he was that I have actually put effort in my schooling. That made me feel better but I still felt that I was dumb and not capable or qualified to take this class. My dad then proceeded to give me advice and told me over and over that everything is going to be okay. He said that I could either learn from this experience and look at a way to grow and learn from my mistakes or I could say I'm a failure and give up. He reminded me that I am not the kind of person to give up.

Heavenly Father puts trials in front of us to help us learn and grow from our mistakes. My mistake was cramming right before the test instead of always studying every night. Now that I know what to do for the future I can only hope that I will be able to retain the things I need to in order to be prepared. I know I am not alone in this. I know that I can always pray for comfort. Even though I feel like a complete failure I know that that is not what people think of me as. I know my parents don't think I'm a loser who isn't smart. I know my Heavenly Father knows the potential I have and doesn't think I'm a total and complete failure. I know my parents and Heavenly Father love me and are proud of the righteous decisions that I have made throughout my life.

Failure isn't supposed to bring us down. It's supposed to help us learn and think about our futures. If everyone gave up after 1 failure then we wouldn't have a lot of the things we do now. It's a test and trial circumstance that we all go through and we only grow from them. I'm so grateful for the comfort this gospel gives me. If anything, I feel like I let myself down more than my parents or Heavenly Father. But I know that I will be okay in the end. This is nothing compared to everything else that happens in this world. I'm doin good :)

Remember that failure is okay. Keep doing your best!