I felt impressed to write this post since today's theme (for me) has been focused on Prayer. I have not always been the best communicator with Heavenly Father. In fact, yes I'll admit it in this blog, I used to never have daily personal prayers. I do feel bad and guilty, however that has been changing.
My first semester at BYUI, I had a fabulous Book of Mormon teacher. I learned so much from him. The main thing that stuck out to me a lot (because he would bring it up in every class) was, "How's your prayer life?" and show a picture of two links, linked together. He explained that our connection with our Heavenly Father is like those to links, linked together. It's hard to break that connection. At first I didn't completely understand. I thought that if you didn't pray, you didn't have a connection. Later I learned that having a constant prayer in your heart and saying small prayers throughout the day are all part of that connection. I asked for two links for christmas to put on my key chain to remind me of my prayer life.
Since that experience, I have had battles with Satan and praying. There were times that I only prayed for help on a test and never for anything else. There were times that I laid in bed thinking I needed to get up onto my knees and pray but didn't because I felt sleep was more important. The Devil really worked on me. I, since then, have gained a greater, stronger connection with my Heavenly Father. I feel closer to my Heavenly Father and have way more trust in Him then I ever have had before. I know He loves me and hears my pleas and questions. I know His hand is in my life and that He wants me to succeed and be happy. I have no idea where I would be without Him and I am eternally grateful for His love and support in my life.
I really wish it didn't take me this long to build a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father. However, I know He has forgiven me and is just happy that I'm building it now. I strongly encourage you to pray and to pray often. Also, listen. Listen to what He has to say to you. Be patient. Answers to prayers are NOT in your time, but His. He knows when you need specific things and it will all make sense to you in the end. I promise it's worth waiting for. Sometimes your answer is no. You have to accept that and grow and learn from that experience. Just because Heavenly Father tells you no doesn't mean He doesn't love you. Sometimes no is a good thing for your well being and growth.
I love this gospel and the wonderful aspects of it. I have no idea where I would be or who I would be without it. I know that Heavenly Father loves me and is watching out for me and caring for me. He supports me and knows what I'm going through in this life here on earth. I am grateful for His love and guidance in my life. I am grateful that I can pray to Him and never feel alone. I know He is always listening to me and sincerely cares about me.
So....how's YOUR prayer life?
